Everyone thinks this is a cakewalk. This is no cake walk. Your mind is plotting out your next relapse. SUCKER PUNCH! And you don’t even see it coming. One of the settings you get stuck on is the most upsetting. As I would call it getting stuck on stupid. Once you start you just can’t STOP! Oh and of course; it is no laps of luxury. Let me tell you!!!! The Liars, Leakers, and Liberals are all over. I even moved out of my own house to hide from them. There is no time frame on their time management either. With all rigorous honesty 99.9% OF MY LAPES ARE FROM ENVIRONMENTAL TRIGGERS. I was a material girl living in a material world. Somehow, I was always teased to come out and play. There I go breaking bad digging out my rigs. If only I would have dug deeper. I would have found the super strength to get a hold of myself.
I couldn’t even remotely control myself; once it was around. Or even for that matter once the idea popped into my head. I popped like a pimple. There was no turning back. It was simply Irresistible! Well if I learned anything from this it was how to grow up on my own. My family had no clue what I was going through and only made matters worse. They just wanted it to end, but it only ended in fight. I would always run off out in the cold, to fend for myself because I had to face it, I wasn’t Miss Congeniality. What they didn’t realize was they needed a separate language to talk to me. Speak what it is that I reek of. So, you can pronounce what it is you need to announce in confidence. It will really help you have a breakthrough. Now ultimately, we all work for ourselves. You get out, what you put in. We are all managers of our own life. For example, if you sneeze out this huge snot wad because your allergic to something in your environment. You need to take medication or move out of that area. Believe me it would be a severe allergic reaction that would occur. Because your chances of building up an immunity are very slim. I was confused by this potentially fatal hazardous condition I had called addiction. If your sad and you know it call the HELP-LINE! If your sad and you know it call the HELP-LINE!
Desperado, why ain’t I coming to my senses? I have been out looking to see what dispenses! Oh, you’re a hard one to beat! But I know there’s a reason. There is not enough pleasing. Just way too much hurting. If you draw the queen of hearts. She’ll beat you every time. You know the queen of spades is going to be your best bet. It seems you’ll find somethings have been left on your table and when your willing and able. You can make things go stable. Don’t wait for the ones you can’t get. Desperado, oh you ain’t getting younger. Cause your pain and your hunger; let’s hope they drive you home. And freedom, oh freedom, you’re just a wish a away. Who cares what their saying? It’s a prison in itself. No need to walk through this world alone. It’s too cold this brittle winter. Please don’t get cold feet. The sky won’t shine, and it gets too hard to tell the night from the day. You keep losing too much! And it’s so funny how the feeling goes away every time. Desperado why can’t I come to my senses? Please don’t bring your offenses. It may be raining but there is a rainbow somewhere for me. Somebody please, show me the love. Please love me before it’s too late. Desperado.